is it ever gonna be easy?

I am making a list in my head for all of the weird things that my body & mind are doing in the recovery period after Race Across the West. It's been three weeks, and I still find myself doing or saying or experiencing things that really can only be related to that herculean race. I'll share that list, eventually, but I often wonder if I'll ever be back to normal again.

And then I get mad at myself for saying that - I mean, it was just a race.

One thing that has really been clear in this time period is how RAW laid my soul bare - right down to the bone. I'm so acutely aware of my mood fluctuations... and there are many. I guess I'm glad I've got the self-awareness to recognize what is going on.